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My Euphoria

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Today I got the call of the Void.

I left my house feeling excited about today, plans for work and meetings with new clients. Back track to yesterday I felt very sad; depressed and down. The atmosphere in the office didn’t help matters at all, pressure from the CEO to make sales, talking to the very arrogant Manager and an irritated PA. I did my absolute best getting through the day without anyone noticing my situation and when I thought I had gotten out of the suffocating environment, depression and reminiscing of old times started setting in.

I couldn’t sleep at all last night, thought all through the night, cried myself to sleep because that was the only thing I wanted to do at that point. I needed solitude but that led to more pain and hurt. I tried speaking to someone but it was cut short due to his personal issues; Loneliness and soliloquy took over.

While going to work this morning on third Mainland Bridge, I felt the sudden rush to jump and end this life of pain, hurt, stagnation and lack of peace. I have never been suicidal ever before but I wanted to give in because it felt like an escape. I’m here at work still feeling the same way but I would get through this, maybe not now but someday.